Decisions ^^

I mind keep asking "isn't a right time for this decision?"
I am confuse for my decision..
This may affect my future life, my parents, his parents and other family issues...
What if the things not happen before? Isn't we have same problems to worry?
I have no answer for this..
I have bad feeling,
Even my parent ( father and mother )
They both also have quarrel on these.
They have different thinking and mindsets.
Now, I have despair 😰
There are long ways to go..
I have to made own decisions
But it does not affect both parents' feelings...
REALLY!!!!!!!!
Who want to help me and listen to me??????